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OK so Ihave a little anxiety today. I have cleaned tons but I feel like I have not accomplished anything. On top of everything I am late..yes I mean my cycle. I know that lots of you know that Mike and I have talked about having another baby but the reality of 3 kids...that creeps me out. Mainly because I have lost so many I don't want to get my hopes up yet again for it to fail. Then the thought that it might me another girl. I mean I would love whatever the good LORD gave me but 4 women in the house. Mike might just divorce me. Not really! So I am not sure when I will take a test but it better be soon so that I can do what I need to to be able to hold it. I calculated it today and if I was it would be due around Mike's birthday. That is kinda cool! I am asking you to pray for me and with me. Everything will be ok. GOD is at the head of our table. More to come on this anxiety.