Day 1

Wow! That is all that I can say. I did get up on time and worked out for 2 hours. It felt so good! I am going to try my hardest to keep with it. We then went to my parents house to spend a little time with them. We then made the long drive home just to eat then out we went again. Jaiden had her first cheer practice for upward and she is SOOOO cute.
We are now in the planning zone though, Giuliana will turn 4 in less than 2 weeks. I am planning her party and it is so much fun but I want it to be perfect for her. The theme this year is Barbie and that she is. She reminds me of a barbie with wanting her hair to be perfect and always wanting to be dressed up. She is such a girl!
I am struggling with the fact that I need to find a job and I know I am going to miss so much in the kids lives. I have been a working mom from day one and I wasn't sure what I was missing but now that I have been home for almost a year I know. I have been able to be room mom for Jaiden and take Giuliana on play dates. I am going to miss all of that TONS! I pray everyday that I find a job that I can do from home or at least it is flexible. I really LOVE my kids and it is a different kind of LOVE. It is the kind of love that we all should be giving one another. Unconditional, all excepting and PURE! I have come to a new realization that I don't know what my life was or would be without them. I think each and everyday about when I couldn't see the tiny faces and trying so hard to remember how they smiled and how Jaiden's eyes get big when she gets in trouble or how Giuliana lowers her head. I don't ever want to forget those things and I know when I go back to work that I will not get to see those things all day everyday. I know that the Lord will give me the strength to do what is needed and he will provide the best option for me. I just pray that it is in his hands and that I follow what he wants.

Talk to you next time.
Shannon